I'm so pissed off right now.
So Canito was working all day today, right, and he didn't get home till like 6pm. He comes home, and everything is fine. I even had a chance to take a nap (before he got home). I was just too damn tired. So earlier today, the neighbor asked me to call him (Canito), and ask if he could take Roxy (our horse) to some house down the street, so she could eat the grass. Roxy usually stays in the neighbors yard, idk why. I told him, that where he was working, there was no service. So when he gets home, I cook some pasta with shrimp and Bertolli sauce (its delicious!!). Before he eats, he tells me he's gonna go to a Gallera or h/e its spelled (where roosters fight to the death). I asked, "Now?" he says, "Not now, after I eat, and take a shower."
We eat, and after he takes a shower, he tells me I need to put gas in the car before he goes back to my Grandma's (♥) house to pick up the money for today(he has to go tmrw to pick it up). I asked if I could go with him, he says, "If you want to." So after that, I said how many bars of gas are in the car (we have an '09 Yaris) and he says 3, but it won't make it to my Grandma's house.
So I say, "Keep going up and down, and it won't go so fast."
"Well I had to work today", he tells me.
"That's not what I'm talking about, and you know it." (about going to horse races, and "galleras".
"Well, I put in gas too, so what do you want me to do? I need to enjoy it."
At this point, I'm pissed off and yelling at him. (=D)
"I PUT IN GAS ALL THE TIME. DO YOU SEE ME ENJOYING IT?!?!
"Yes you do", he says.
"HOW? WHERE THE F*** DO I GO THAT I ENJOY IT?!"
At this point he stays shut. Good. He knows I'm right. I don't go anywhere. If I want to go out, its a problem, and if I wanna go shopping, he rushes me. I SOOOOOOOOOOO want my license already!
So we ignore e/o for a few, then he comes to me and says, " You didn't tell me the neighbor asked you to call me. And what are you gonna say, that you forgot?"
I tell him, "I was tired what do you want me to do?"
I didn't tell him he didn't have no service. I mean he should have known. After he left my aunt's house, he called me and I told him I tried to call him, but he didn't have any service. I mean HELLO?!?!? And when he called me he had woken me up from my nap. HTF was I supposed to remember when I'm half asleep??? I'm just like OMG! He does so many things, or talks to people, and when I ask him about it, you know what his excuse is? "I forgot." I have to find out from conversations he has when I'm in the same room as him, or I hack into his myspace, and I find out! (hehe =D)
He doesn't talk to any females, or anything, but he'll send a friend request to a female, and I'll find out, and he'll tell me how he knows them, blah blah blah. But one time, he got a message from his ex, and he never told me about it. I had to go into his account and find out myself! I called him out on it, and he says, "I didn't remember. And I didn't read it good." But he tells me practically everything that was in the message!
Common! Whats worse? The nieghbor asking me to call him, or him not telling me his ex sent him a message?!!?! You see. If I do it, all hell breaks loose, but if he does it, I'm wrong to call him out on it!
IDK how much more of this I can take ppl! A class I took helped me to learn how to not depend on him so much, and I'm about to use that to my advantage if you know what I mean. It's just so frusterating. Like he can have female friends on MYSPACE, but if I have male friends, its a problem as well. WTF?!?!?
OMG. One time, I was on my home page, and he saw my uncle was on my top friends, and hes like " Who the hell is that?"
When I tell him its my uncle, hes like "Uh huh, whatever."
And I tell him, "YOU SEE. YOU DON'T EVEN BELIEVE ME WHEN I TELL YOU ITS MY UNCLE! YOU CAN HAVE GIRLS ON YOUR MYSPACE, BUT I CANT HAVE GUY FRIENDS ON MINE?!?!"
I'm getting to the point where I can't stand him anymore.
Sometimes it's all fun in the clouds, but most of the time, its like WWIII.
And man, can it get bad sometimes! Not physical, but emotional, and verbal.
Well anywho, the baby is cranky cuz she's sleepy. Gonna put her to sleep. Till tomorrow! Or w.e this a**hole decides to piss me off, again! hehe.
3 comments:
Not that I can truely understand your situation, however, I've had friends that have been where you are. It took her forever to finally get out, and 4 kids later. They never married either.
In the begining it was verbal and emotional abuse, but later, towards the end, it became physical. Not all of a sudden, but slowly. For instance, when they would fight, he might throw something in her direction, then move on to shaking her when he was mad, but eventually it did become physical.
Again, I dk 1st hand what you're going thru, nor do I have any kids. But if it were me, I'd definately figure out how to be more independant and possibly.. eventually.. go out on my own. Maybe you guys just need some space for a bit. Maybe after living apart for awhile, knowing that you can take care of yourself and your daughter it might bring your relationship to a better place. Good Luck :)
How old are you? How old is your little girl
- Jess
I'm 19 going to be 20 in May. And my baby is 13 months. I know I'm young, but I don't regret it one bit. =)
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