Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't been blogging lately. My life just seems sooo....drama free! WOOHOO! YAY ME! lol.
Hmm. Let's see. Last week, Canito and I got into 2 big arguements. I deleted his side on the computer. TWICE. He has like this porn obsession, and it really bothers me. I have self-esteem issues as it is. That doesn't help. AT ALL! So when I call him out on it, it bothers him. Also, lately we haven't really had a sex life, but yesterday, we finally got caught up on it! He woke me up 2 night in a row for some, like 5 days ago. And then yesterday. IDK why, being as I still haven't gotten my menstrual. But whatever. He didn't have his own screen name on my computer to watch porn, so HA! lol. I made another one for him though. And while we were arguing last week, I called him out on not spending any time with the baby and I, but it's actually gotten A LOT better! I have been VERY happy lately. I get up in this like, IDK.....sunshine mood, lol. The first day we started arguing, I got up on the wrong side of the bed, I might add. =D But then, everything got better. The next day, OMG the fight we had was HORRIBLE! We started calling eachother unpleasant names, and he said he wasn't even going to sleep here. All I said was OK. Then I told him to take me to my Dad's house, since I didn't have a reason to be here (meaning my house). I told him as well, "YOU HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY THAT SHIT TO ME, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALLS TO APOLOGIZE!" He says, "I'VE WANTED TO APOLOGIZE FOR A WHILE NOW, BUT YOUR GOING TO STAY MAD, ANYWAYS. SO WHAT'S THE POINT?"
me: LET ME STAY MAD THEN! AT LEAST YOUR SAYING YOUR SORRY!
Things didn't really budge from there. He just started pissing me off, even more, calling me crazy! It's not the first time. I know I can act crazy sometimes, so whatever. But it got a whole lot better a few minutes after we hung up (we were talking on the phone, because he was on the other block from where we live, with his friend). This creepy guy came to my house, (it's a house, with 2 apartments in it. one in front, and ours in back.) and he couldn't find my neighbor, so he came to my house! We always leave the door open, because it's a safe neighborhood, and we have a curtain up, because the door is glass. Or whatever material it is. It's like plastic glass, lol. SO...he starts calling for someone to answer him, then as I'm walking to the door, he opens the curtain slightly.
me: yes?
him: do you know where [neighbor lady] is? i'm her husband.
me: no. she doens't really live there anymore. she's been staying with her mother.
him: oh, ok. i haven't seen her in a while. she has my son.
me: oh, ok.
him: ok. thank you.
I'm kind of freaked out by this point, because I have NEVER -in the almost-year that we have lived here,- seen him. Then he comes back, AGAIN! I open the curtain, this time, only slightly.
me: yes?
him: can i use your bathroom. i really need to pee.
me: no, im sorry my husband isn't here.
him: oh, ok i'm sorry.
So he goes back to the front of the house, and I call Canito.
me: Canito, come home now, please! There's this strange guy, and he's looking for NL, and he says he's her husband, then he asked to use the bathroom, and I told him no, because you aren't here.
He starts running to the house, and I tell him Creepy Guy is in a 4 door white car, with a green striped shirt on. Canito goes running to the car, and asks the guy what his deal was, and through all of this, we were still on the phone. The guy was crapping his pants. In the end, I felt bad, because Canito told me the guy had peed his pants. It was clearly showing. But hello??? Who the hell would let some stranger into their house, with their daughter being there, and no one to protect us?? HELL NO! Let him pee his pants. I'm not going to put my daughter in danger! That guy could have been a rapist for all I know! I did the right thing. I was protecting my daughter, and myself. I will protect her from everything that I have the power to protect her from. So yeah. After that, Canito came home, and he apologized to me, and I apologized back, and all was well again. Since then, which was like Thursday, and Friday, we haven't argued! WOOHOO!!!!
Saturday, we went to my Dad's house to stay the night. I missed hanging out with him. My Dad is my best friend. And I'll tell you this, he is NOT like other Dad's (in a good way). He actually talks to me about sex, openly. Not the whole birds and the bees speech. I mean, come on. It's too late for that! lmao. He actually tells me, to never stop having sex with Canito. And to have LOTS of sex! It actually is important in a relationship. Not the MOST important, but it is a very big part of a relationship. Would you rather your man, or woman cheat on you before you give them a piece? Come on! Sex isn't bad! It's fun! Go to cosmopolitan.com and look up new sex moves to spruce-up your sex life. But give in, before they give up. ANYWAYS! Yeah, my Dad is ghetto. Lol. He never had a chance to talk to me about sex, or drugs, or anything, because my mom took me away from him when I was 12. Then we were 6 years without talking, because of my mom. That's one of the many reasons my mom and I don't talk today. But that's for a whole other post! So yeah, when we got to my dad's house, we went to the pool!!!! I was so happy. It had been FOREVER since I went to the pool! And Jay!!! She LOVED IT!!!! When we first moved to PR, we'd go to the pool, and she'd start splashing, and we'd tell her, "Nada! Nada!" Which means swim, in spanish. And she'd start kicking her legs, and moving her arms, trying to swim! It was just soooo adorable. She didn't do that on Saturday, tho. Could be cuz she forgot. It has been a while since we've been in the pool.
Saturday night, we went to my Grandpa's house to watch the boxing match. I didn't stay long, because the baby does NOT like violence for anything, and she'll start crying, and getting fussy. So around 10:30pm, Canito took me back to my dad's house. I put the baby to sleep as soon as we got there. She KNOCKED OUT! lol. Canito went back, and I was bored, with no internet. So I finished washing the load of clothes I had brought, and I finished washing my dad's clothes, and I folded them. (I know! I'm such a good daughter! lmao! jk) I did it because, come on. It's the LEAST I can do for everything my dad is doing for us right now. My dad is also seeing someone! I am excited for him! HE'S SMITTEN!!!! She sounds like SUCK A GOOD PERSON! She's young, but mature. She has a 2 month-old baby, which I hear is almost bigger than my daughter lol. Breast-fed babies usually are bigger. Jay was breast-fed, well I pumped, since she never took the breast. My milk came in late, so in the hospital, they gave her a bottle right away, and she stood with the bottle. I pumped for 3 months, but it's just UGH! My dad's GF is breast-feeding. So that's why her daughter is so big. Jay was kinda chunky while i was BF, but now she's not SKINNY SKINNY, but she's average. So yeah, I am SOOOOOOO happy for my dad.
I will either meet her tomorrow, or Saturday. Depends on her schedule, because she works on Sat at 2pm. I am excited to meet her. I have never seen my dad so happy, and glowing. EVER. So hey, if someone can make my dad happy, I'm happy. All I want for him is for him to be happy. His ex is nice, but may I just say, GOLD DIGGER!!!! She wanted everything for her son's. When my dad got me a car, OMG the face she had! Since we lived upstairs (my dad has a 2-floor condo) she was mad. That was her "study place". Bitch, that's why you have your room! Since my dad pays all my bills, and doesn't hesitate if I ask for something (not often, I promise. I am spoiled, but I don't act it! I learned to be independant at a young age because of my mom. I hate that he pays for everything. But with this economy, we can't get a job) if we need it, she would complain. Even when my Grandma needed something, and my dad jumped to get it for her, The Ex-"Mom" bitched about it. "How come when I ask for something you don't want to get it for me, but when your mom asks, you don't hesitate?" HER WORDS! My dad's: "Because she's my mom." OMG. After Canito, Jay, and I moved to our apt., we took some towels, cuz hello, we didn't have any. She complained, saying, "You should have asked me." My dad said, "She's my daughter. I will give her whatever she needs. You don't have authority to tell me what I can, and cannot give my daughter. If I have to give her my life, I will."
I know. My dad is so sweet ♥
((happy sigh)) I'm happy that my dad is happy.
I'm waiting for him to call me, so I'll know what time go over there tomorrow. We're spending the night again =). I'm also happy, that for now, theres no drama. I hope I don't jinx myself!
Quote of the day:
"Age ain't nothin' but a number!"
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