Wish me Luck!

I would like to thank the person for reading, and commenting on my last blog. I would like to say, that thankfully, it has never come to physically fighting between Canito, and I. He's never shaken me, or pushed me, or anything of that matter. If it ever does get to that point, I'd kick his ass to the curb. It's not just me I have to think about, its my daughter as well. We'll just see how it goes from here on out. But again, thank you!

OK. So, a few days ago, my aunt sent me an email, about a women's clothing store thats opening up in a mall around here soon. I applied, and I seriosuly forgot all about it! Then today, I was talking to my Grandma (♥ I love her sooooo much!) and after we hang up, I saw that I had a voicemail. My phone doesn't have call waiting because its one of those REALLY cheap phones, but its simple, and my dad bought it for me, because my Sidekick LX doesn't work. I broke it after arguing with Canito a while back. (=D) hehe.
So, I listen to the voicemail, and its that store, saying that they saw my online application, and would like for me to come in for an interview next week! I call back right away, but they didn't pick up, so I left a message. I called again, still don't pick up, but this time I don't leave a message. A few minutes later, she called me back again, saying where I go, and what time blah blah blah.... And I'm just SUPER EXCITED! I don't want to get my hopes up, because this store hasn't even opened yet. They're still under construction, and I'm pretty sure there's going to be A LOT more people there, with more experience than I have. But I'm staying positive, with a "YES!" attitude. Please, send good vibes, and wish me luck, and pray for me! I need it! So yea, the interview is next Wednesday at 11am. But obviously I have to get there earlier, because it's going to be a group interview, and there's different groups. I need this job really bad. I want to keep up the treatments on my braces, and I wanna go back to school. I really need this job! I hate being broke.

So on other news, after I posted yesterday's blog, I decided to call Canito.
Instead of being at a "gallera" he was at the neighbor's uncle's house. Of course I'm pissed off cuz of the earlier arguement, and I say, "You see, then you bitch at me for not telling you anything. Why couldn't you call me and tell me?"
"Because we got here a few minutes ago, and when we got here, we started talking about boxing, and he has a punching bag so I wanted to try it out."
(He used to box.)
So I say, "I'm not saying this to argue with you, but you were overreacting earlier. If I tell you, I'm a "cari pelao" (idk if i spelled it right, but in english it means i smile with everybody), and if I don't tell you, I'm hiding something, and you don't tell me everything all the time."
He says, "I know your not like that, it's just you know I get really jealous, and I know your not like that."
"I keep telling you that."
So we drop it from there, and everything is fine all throughout the night, to today, and we had some morning nookie. (TMI, i know lol. i know i put up with A LOT of shit!) So later on today, he goes to pick up the money from yesterday. I didn't go, because I'm kinda sick, and my Grandma babysit's my little cousin, while my aunt and uncle are at work. (he is so ADORABLE btw!) On the way back home he says he put in $20 in gas. I said, "Good, that's how it should be, especially when your up and down all the time. If I'm gonna use the car, I put in gas, but if your gonna use the car, you put in gas. It's not fair that I have to put in gas all the time, when I don't even use the car!" He laughs, (i wasn't arguing with him on that note) and says, "I know." So that's ok. 
But later today, he tells me he has $40 left. I didn't catch on at first, but I believe they were supposed to give him $80. -20 for gas. He should have had $60 right? I didn't catch on right away. 
Later tonight, after he left, he calls me and says he needs to shut off the phone cuz he has no battery I said ok fine, whatever. We hang up. He calls back, WHILE I'M IN THE SHOWER! I figured I didn't need to bring my phone to the bathroom, because he had his phone off anyway. I had to run out buck naked, trying not to slip and bust my ass, especially since I had soap all over me! Just for him to tell me he spent another $10 on a charger, when there was NO NEED TO! I wasn't going to call him! I tell him, "WHY WHEN YOU HAVE A CHARGER HERE, AND AN EXTRA BATTERY!?" He says, "Well I didn't bring it with me." I say, "Well that's your problem!"
"I didn't call you to argue, I was informing you. We'll talk lat...."
At that point I had hung up on him. I know I might seem like I'm overreacting, but common! We need the money! And everytime someone calls him to work, which is not often, cuz it's not a stable job, it's a "hey we need you can u come", sort of thing, the money goes as fast as it comes. Thankfully, my dad pays for EVERYTHING! But common, I'm a  grown woman, and a mom! I don't want to depend on my dad all my life. And he needs money too! That's why I'm so desperate for a job. SO maybe I am overreacting but we really need the money right now. Everytime he gets money, he spends it really quick. It does get frusterating. So yea, at this point he has $50 right? I call him back and ask if he has the money for his son's child support. 
him: all i have is $20.
me: WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OTHER $10?
him: They're right here.
me: so call your mom then.
I call him again around 9:36, and ask him if he has called his mom, he says no. His mom is going through a rough time right now, and she doesn't need any more stress! WTF?!?!?! Am I overreacting? Or am I right? AND WTF HAPPENED TO THE OTHER $20?!?!?!
Almost 2 hours later, still not home. On top of all this, my monthly friend hasn't come down yet! With birth control, it comes like every 28-30 days. W.out, every 33-35 days. It's been about 34 days now. Still waiting..... And last month, when I was supposed to get my BC, they weren't accepting any VISA's, and by that time it was too late to take them. A WHOLE MONTH w.out them. We do take precautions, but apparently not enough! I love my daughter, but I DO NOT, and I repeat, DO NOT want another kid right now. It's not the time to have one, and we're not even financially stable! I mean I have the cramps, but, NOTHING! We'll see. Time will tell, right? AAAHHHHH!!!!!!


Quote of the day:
"ii DON't FORqiiVE PPl. bECAUsE ii'M WEAk.
ii FORqiiVE tHEM bECAUsE ii'M StRONq ENOUqH 
tO kNOw PPl MAkE MiiStAkES."

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