Switching It Up A Bit

You know, I always thought having Anal Sex was like the forbidden land. I had tried it twice before I got with Canito. I didn't like it too much. It hurt a lot. I think cuz they were just inexperienced with that sort of thing. After I got with Canito, we waited a while to try it. 

However, on my 18th birthday (what a birthday present right) after all the drama that my mom and her husband caused, and after the drama starter's were off to bed, we tried it out. Yes, all of this happened ON MY BIRTHDAY! My mom came to me, saying that her husband had saw Canito with another girl, just before coming upstairs to my house. I'll call him The Asshole. 

You see, The Asshole had a camera in front of the building, and one to show the door to the roof. He was just nosey like that, and he had (I imagine he still has it) an ILLEGAL antenna, for a radio. A radio where he can actually hear dispatch calls from the police. (hey, if a cop is reading this, i will gladly give over their address.) They started with that RUMOR on my 18th birthday. The day I became an adult. Because they knew, that from that day on, I would do whatever, and whenever I wanted to do it. My mom tried to control my life for 16 years (for 2 yrs i lived with my dad), and it only got worse as I started dating. She would throw me at my friends who had money. If they didn't have money, they'd say I couldn't see them anymore, blablabla. It got to the point, where The Asshole called me a loser, and later on after that, he started calling me a slut. I don't trust easily. Especially females. I'd rather have guy friends before girl friends. So this only got worse over time, but that's for another post.

Anyways, on my birthday, after my mom would go to her room, (the asshole never came out of his hole) we got busy. We always did after they went to bed. He wouldn't go home till about 1-2 am. We were seeing e/o for like a month and a half almost 2, before we started having sex. Then one day, he was sucking on my breast, and I told him it didn't really turn me on, cuz it doesn't. Well, now it does. Idk he has some magic or something, cuz it didn't really do anything to me back then, but now, if we're doing GOT (girl-on-top), in order for me to get off, he HAS to suck on my breasts. I think I didn't have much feeling in my breasts untill I got pregnant. And they went up to a size 38D. Bigger even after I gave birth, and they would fill up with milk. Man was it painful the first time it came in! 

So, we started having sex in the first week of April, '08. And it started by him sucking on my breast, and I told him that it didn't do anything to me. He says, "What about here?" And he motions to my you-know-what. I shrugged my shoulders. I sat on the chair, and he went at it. I was really turned on, so in my head I said fuck it, and motioned for him to take his pants off, and lets get at it! We did. It started in the living room, and ended in the bathroom, where for the first time, a guy came in me. Besides one time with my first real boyfriend (after I lost my virginity. aka 2nd partner), where the condom broke. That time wasn't intentional. This time was. And it felt good. So good in fact, that I wanted him to do it again the next day. And he did, again, and again, and again. Two weeks before my birthday, I went to Puerto Rico for 10 days, to see my dad for the first time in 6 years (thanks to my mom). After I went back to New York, 3 days later, was my birthday. And on that day, we wanted to try something new. (i know i keep jumping back and forth, i hope im not too confusing!)

I was sitting/laying on the chair (my mom didn't have couches cuz she had so many damn cats) and he was kneeling on the floor, and he asked if he could stick it in my ass. I said ok. I was sooo in love with him, that I was willing to try anything. He is my first love. I THOUGHT I had loved before, but no. So we had anal sex for the first time on my birthday. It didn't hurt too much. Probably from the thrill of being in my living room. With my brother in the next room, and my mom at the end of the hall. It felt good to be bad. She didn't know I was having sex. When she found out I lost my virginity at 15 (i know i was young), well, she found out after I turned 15 but it was February 6th, 2005. BEFORE I turned 15. Well, when she found out, thanks to her husband listening in on my phone conversations, she beat me with a leather belt. And I mean beat me. I had bruises all over. I was sitting on my computer chair, and I had fell off of it, and she just kept swinging at me. She was screaming, "YOU FUCKING BITCH. YOU DISAPPOINT ME. YOU DISGUST ME!" On that day, she OBLIGATED me to promise her that I wouldn't have sex, untill I turned 18. Yeah, right.


I would have sleep-overs with my 2nd partner, and her thinking I was at his cousin's house. So I continued to do what I wanted behind her back. It felt even better when I was having sex with Canito on chairs that she sat on. 


I know all this might seem harsh, but my mom has done A LOT of shit to me, and my siblings. Major reason why I don't talk to her today, and neither does my sister.
Warning: For all parents out there, be more open with your children. I'm not saying you should tell them to go and have sex, but TALK TO THEM. The more you forbid them, or ground them from doing something, the more likely they are to do it. Trust me. I've been there, done that. And we don't feel bad about it in the end either. We do it to prove something, to feed our ego's. 


And doing it with Canito, gave me the thrill. Sex with him has always been great. And it was even better when there was that adrenaline rush of maybe being caught. We were inseperable untill those rumors and many more started. He just didn't come upstairs anymore. So we would resume our sexual encounters where he was staying. Downstairs with his cousin. 
We started with sleep-overs. I was already 18, so wtf. 
And we tried anal one more time. It didn't hurt too much that time either. It is best to do it after the female has gotten off at least once, cuz then her muscles are more relaxed. The moral of this story is, anal sex. 


At times, I like it. At times, it hurts. Canito is pretty big, so it can make it more uncomfortable. But, after reading City Girl Blogs, I'm more open to it. The down side is, that I can't cum through my ass. I can only cum clitorally. I don't think I have a G-Spot. I tried feeling for it, only to no avail. 


How do you know what to look for? What does a G-Spot feel like? Do all women squirt from cumming vaginally? Clitorally? I'd like to know these answers. Maybe I'll finally be able to cum vaginally, if I know.


Next Post: The many problems I have with my mother. And why is it that we don't talk, also, me finding out I was pregnant. Did Canito and I talk about it beforehand, or didn't we??? Then following, more sex posts.