I've always had bad luck around my birthday. 4 days after my 16th birthday, I broke my femur bone. The hardest bone of the body to break, I broke it.
My 18th birthday, my mom ruined it for me.
Now, 5 days before my 20th birthday, and my 2 year anniversary, David and I break up. I think I'm cursed.
It was bound to happen, you know. We just don't get along, anymore. We only ask e.o things, and have sex. I tell him what's going on with my dad, because I have no one else to talk to, besides you guys.
I found a girls number in his phone, that was never there before, but he says he doesn't know who it belongs to. This morning, he got a call, and left the room. I was still asleep. He took a shower, and said he was going to his friends house.
I call him when I wake up, and he says that his friend, Elias, got a phone call from one of his friends. You see, Elias has a girlfriend, but he's cheating on her. So, one of the girls he's cheating on his gf with, called David. Elias told the girl not to call him on his phone. So, he used David's. How would you feel about that?
David told me what happened, and then I said, "You sure it wasn't Maria?" Maria is the number in his phone. Then he starts cursing and yelling at me, and says he couldn't take it anymore, and that he doesn't want to be with me. I told him I didn't want to be with him, either. I decided this a while ago, IDK why I didn't have the balls to tell him. I think it was for Jaslin, but 2 people can't stay together if we don't get along, regardless if we have a kid together. He also said that he's happy that I came out with that, because he now sees "the real me", and he doesn't live on the cloud anymore. He also called me crazy.
He said he was holding out for Jaslin, which I already knew. He also said that I'm not in love with him, but obsessed with him. I am NOT obsessed. I'm soooo happy we're not together anymore. I was tired of the bullshit, the verbal abuse, him not appreciating me, and taking me for granted, him not being here.
I also found out why he every time I ask to go out with him, he says no. I called him out on that. Whenever I would ask him to do something with me, like go out if we had money, you know, go out on a date, with Jaslin, of course, he'd say no. But then, his friends would call him, and he'd practically RUN over there. He said, "Obviously! You think I want to go out with you?! You fuck with me too much!" So, he doesn't like going out with me.
I'll admit I argued with him a lot. But because of the reasons you just read. I never accused him of cheating on me, except when I saw that number. But I never trusted him.
He said it, and he's right. We don't trust each other, we lie to each other, and we don't communicate. He lies about stupid things, when if he would just tell me the truth, I wouldn't be mad about it. He thinks I'd be mad about it, so he lies to me. I lie to him about the computer. He doesn't know I have a blog, so when he comes around, I have to stop typing, and change the tab on my web browser. I also have a guy best friend who lives in NY. David is jealous as hell. He thinks every guy around wants to fuck me. Not true. I'm not that pretty. So, he'd accuse me of something I'm not even doing. Like cheating. He even said that I talk to guys on the computer on Facebook. Not true. I have guy friends, whom I went to school with. Other than my best friend, I don't talk to ANY ONE. And, he also said that he's caught me typing, because he looks in through the window, and when he comes in, the same window he saw on the computer, wouldn't be there, and he'd ask what I'm doing, and I'd say I was reading. The window is RIGHT over my head. So, it was most likely him seeing me type a new blog post, or talking to my best friend.
He doesn't believe me. So, whatever. It's over. And I'm relieved about it. Now, I'm just not sure if I should stay here, or stay with my Dad. I think I'm going to stay here, because I don't like being at my Dad's house, anymore.
So yes people, after 2 LOOOOONG MISERABLE YEARS, I'M FINALLY SINGLE!!!!!!
IDK if this is going to change. I'll let you know what happens.
3 comments:
I'm sorry to hear that..I think.. kinda?? I mean, I know you say you're really happy it's over and I personally think it's best by just reading your past posts. However, I do think you do love him on some level, and maybe further down the road things will work out and you guys can get back together. Personally, I believe that he's just got some growing up to do.
But like you said.. you don't trust eachother and really.. how can you have a relationship of ANY kind if there's no trust there?
I wish you the best of luck and hope things turn out for the best, which ever way that might be. :)
I made the mistake of staying with my ex husband for eight long years. Neither of us trusted each other and all he did was lie to me. We stayed because of our three sons. Now that they are older, they tell me that they were completely miserable because of the arguing and they knew he was cheating on me because he even took them to the other women's houses while I was working! Move on and find a man who is mature, loving, trusting, honest, and has a J-O-B!!!
J~ I do love him, a lot. I'm just not sure what I want to do right now. He needs to learn to trust me. I have NEVER cheated on him, and I used to be a cheater. And I never even thought about cheating on him, either.
dolphin fan- I'm very sorry about what happened with your husband. It sucks. Men are assholes. We both have some growing up to do. And its not that he doesn't want a job, its that we've tried looking for a job, and NO ONE is calling back. And where I live, no one is hiring. Its hard in a small island like PR.
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